I'm here! did ya miss me?...guess not.@_@

dang, this year is gonna suck for me once again..."woohoo!"....*cries*...this shit sucks..I hope everyones doing all right and is having a blast! I wish for the best for all of you even if I dont know you at all. my life story so far...hum..let me summerize it.....all right..I got everything that I always wanted, I got my car running again and a razor cell phone and now I got respect from my mom and my sister...whoosh! at last and oh yeah *points* they always saw me as a failure in life but thats different... or so I believe..but ok yesterday I went to this "poetry coffee shop" and for the frist time I have ever been in one man I had a fun time, but then my brother the one who is showing me how to be so called "responsible"..and the one that has been taking care of me for a few months so far and well he taught me a lot of things that I never knew about in reality that no one in this world would waste their time on me. I'am glad that he is helping me and all but there is one HUGE problem...he is too way controling and rarely lets me get out the house with my best friend Jerry. well yesterday I finally went out and it was like 9:00pm not even freaken late..leaves a message on Jerry's cell phone and threatens him...so then he gets scared and trys to take me back home..I then get very upset and my little sister calls me and told me that my brother was soo pissed and grab the 20mm and left with my car looking for us..went to my sisters work and stayed there for a while..I was soo worried that something might happen to Jerry and I was prepared to take any shots from him if he tried to shoot him. Well, long story but short, we went to his appartment and see if he was there but thank god he wasn't..I spent the night here and now I dont wanna go home..but I know that I have to and face him myself...I wondering whats gonna happen next..*pulling out hair* I'm so stress and I'm so lost I dont know what to do now...*sighs*

 

oh i miss you.. well do what i do, get high sweet one ^_^