*sigh*

ok so i talked to mike about it and he whent mad and yelled at me and then kicked his comp, this i take as bad or good? i dont know *sigh* i cant go in to the docter cuse mum wont take me she says im just faking it to get poeple to see me. but im not just this morring i fell down some star's, me and mum got in to it bad this morring.
a few min's after i got out of bed mum and step-da started on me again, its like man i just got up leave me be, but no, any way im walking up the star's and blacked out falling down both flight's the person behinde me triedto help but could not get me. poor thing lost her mind i was ok just they wonted to make sure calling my mum she flips out on me and saided i did it on perpose........ggggggrrrrrrrr.
well any way i founf out he was at the moives friday mike told me he was seeing more moives and that he was there, but he told me he was at a party. basterd lied i wish he's just tell me i would not mind as long as i can join. but what ever im going to call the doc when i get home and get a apointment, hopefuly its not anything bad.

 

Its good to see that your taking steps to get yourself better, i'm sorry that your mam can't really be any help in this but if she can't see that things are getting worse then you have to take charge for yourself and getting the help you need is the first step.
Your bf is another problem, you should try and take things one at a time for moment. I can't really begin to understand why he would start shouting if he was inocent, then again i don't know if he is, you didnt say. But you shouldn't put yourself undoer more stress at this moment, this may be whats causing the black outs.

 

yea luv i know i should but

yea luv i know i should but its just keeps getting worse he called me a stupied bitch last night and i hate that hes a racesit person im so lost*hangs her head*